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Coping mechanisms:

  • Letting my cat come in the bathroom with me because I'm too ashamed to purge/cut in front of his big blue eyes.
  • Knitting - knitting whole garments to keep my hands busy.
  • Editing old poetry, seeing all the growth, growing more.
  • Wearing ripped jeans when I want to self-harm.
  • Dancing to loud music in the empty house.

I relapsed, and I cut my thighs and purged several times but I am working on coping.
  • Mood: Mesmerized
  • Listening to: Tegan and Sara
  • Reading: HP (again)
  • Drinking: bourbon is disgusting



Artist | Student | Literature
United States
My book:…

"Today is a bad day.
Ask me about it.
I’ll probably tell you about
the copious number of snoozes I pressed
before I finally got vertical,
how after I got vertical I just wanted to lie
back down because I remembered
all the things I wish I could forget
and they were so much heavier than
they were last night.
I’ll probably tell you about
slipping on the wet bathroom floor
and the spots I found on my carpet
and over-balancing on the down-stairs
and screaming,
and almost hitting a boy head-to-head
going distractedly around a corner.
I’ll probably tell you about
the rain and how today
it is oppressive,
and the work load is so deep
I can’t even breath
I want summer and darkness and
home so badly."

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ithaswhatitisnt Featured By Owner Aug 12, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you so much for the fave! :tighthug:
jimfleming Featured By Owner Jul 2, 2014
Thank you :)
SoraIsMyHomeboy Featured By Owner Jun 22, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
hey, I haven't chatted with you in forever! how are you doing? :)
sense-and-stupidity Featured By Owner Jun 23, 2014  Student Writer
I'm not so well right now, but I'm hanging in there. 

How are you, love? It's been too long.
SoraIsMyHomeboy Featured By Owner Jun 24, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I'm doing very well. Really busy with work lately though.

Why are you not doing well? :(
CherishKay Featured By Owner Apr 21, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist


I hope you are doing alright, and you never give up your writing and yourself! :huggle:
AlloenDreams Featured By Owner Feb 19, 2014
“the most beautiful people we have known are those who have known defeat, known suffering, known struggle, known loss, and have found their way out of the depths. these persons have an appreciation, a sensitivity, and an understanding of life that fills them with compassion, gentleness, and a deep loving concern. beautiful people do not just happen.”
― elisabeth kübler-ross

keep going sweetheart. i promise, it will all make sense one day --what's hurting you now won't hurt so much, some day. i believe in you; you'll make it :heart:
saltwaterlungs Featured By Owner Feb 4, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Thanks for the favourite!
Shoeborn Featured By Owner Nov 2, 2013  Student General Artist
Hey, just wanted to apologize for starting that argument on your journal. >_< sorry if I was upsetting/terribly irritating.
sense-and-stupidity Featured By Owner Nov 3, 2013  Student Writer
It's fine. Not your fault. :) 
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