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I've never been called "unbelievably pretty" before. I don't really know how to respond.

All I know is that some random person on this campus appreciates that I smile at them, every day at work, and that makes me want to smile more. It makes me feel justified in putting forth the effort to not only look happy, but BE happy. I am so happy, and not just because of this. I know it's not because of this because I've been feeling so positive this last month, because when I was feeling bad something like this would have made me more ashamed of myself - made me want to hide my scars from this person, to lose weight to be more attractive to this "person" - while now, I'm just content knowing I make someone's day simply by smiling at them.

I just want everyone to feel as content as I do. 
Even though it's been rough every once in a while. I just. I never want to go back there...and every once in a while I think about it, about how easy it would be to relapse...but I don't.
And that's the important part: not doing the thing; not wanting to do the thing. Coping in different ways (for me, it seems to be making jokes, screaming into my pillow when I need to, and writing/reciting poetry). I had a personal dance party yesterday when my roommate was away; it woke me up. It made me feel ridiculous and silly and beautiful and maybe 100 percent unqualified to dance in public, but alive. And that's what we need: to feel alive. In short bursts at first, then in months, then in years. 

Find your coping, find your joy, find your smile.
I love you all. 
I'm going to be recording a sonnet (Shakespeare, of course) for class in the next few days. If anyone else wants to record one and link it here, that would be cool. We can have a sonnet party.
I'll link it in an update.

 Dance! Relaxed dance Put your fingers in the air Cheerleader My Dork Dance 

Sonnet 73
  • Mood: Tender
  • Listening to: You Won't - "Fryer"
  • Reading: House of Leaves / Shakespeare's Sonnets
  • Eating: fruit
  • Drinking: grape juice, such raspy voice



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"I want the count down inside of me to stop being so precise; I want to jump to zero and back to infinity. I believe in infinity. It's my fatal flaw."

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Choque-Plumbeo Featured By Owner Sep 10, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
hey wanna read a play with me?
sense-and-stupidity Featured By Owner Sep 11, 2014  Student Writer
Yes. Which and how and when?
Choque-Plumbeo Featured By Owner Sep 12, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Its the King in yellow, part of it which i wrote, read it it's in my page, if you like it we'll talk about how. I'd like to record the voices to put the play together and i heard your voice and i really liked it, also i need a Cassilda and i hope you'll like it. As to when, im moving, so i can not until sunday.
ithaswhatitisnt Featured By Owner Aug 12, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you so much for the fave! :tighthug:
jimfleming Featured By Owner Jul 2, 2014
Thank you :)
SoraIsMyHomeboy Featured By Owner Jun 22, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
hey, I haven't chatted with you in forever! how are you doing? :)
sense-and-stupidity Featured By Owner Jun 23, 2014  Student Writer
I'm not so well right now, but I'm hanging in there. 

How are you, love? It's been too long.
SoraIsMyHomeboy Featured By Owner Jun 24, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I'm doing very well. Really busy with work lately though.

Why are you not doing well? :(
CherishKay Featured By Owner Apr 21, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist


I hope you are doing alright, and you never give up your writing and yourself! :huggle:
AlloenDreams Featured By Owner Feb 19, 2014
“the most beautiful people we have known are those who have known defeat, known suffering, known struggle, known loss, and have found their way out of the depths. these persons have an appreciation, a sensitivity, and an understanding of life that fills them with compassion, gentleness, and a deep loving concern. beautiful people do not just happen.”
― elisabeth kübler-ross

keep going sweetheart. i promise, it will all make sense one day --what's hurting you now won't hurt so much, some day. i believe in you; you'll make it :heart:
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