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none of it has helped and i'm crawling back into that 100 pound skin and my jeans no longer fit they just kinda hang and i'm not leaving bed.
  • Mood: Lonely
  • Reading: thucydides
  • Watching: grey's anatomy
  • Drinking: not enough water, never enough water



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“the most beautiful people we have known are those who have known defeat, known suffering, known struggle, known loss, and have found their way out of the depths. these persons have an appreciation, a sensitivity, and an understanding of life that fills them with compassion, gentleness, and a deep loving concern. beautiful people do not just happen.”
― elisabeth kübler-ross

keep going sweetheart. i promise, it will all make sense one day --what's hurting you now won't hurt so much, some day. i believe in you; you'll make it :heart:
saltwaterlungs Feb 4, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Thanks for the favourite!
Shoeborn Nov 2, 2013  Student General Artist
Hey, just wanted to apologize for starting that argument on your journal. >_< sorry if I was upsetting/terribly irritating.
It's fine. Not your fault. :) 
vespera Sep 30, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Medical History
Eireann Corrigan

When did you begin to experience dramatic weight loss?
            The spring I turned sixteen, after experiencing
     a dramatic desire to lose weight.

What fueled this desire? Did you believe others considered you overweight?
             I believed others didn’t consider me very often. I felt
           too much, burdensome. In the window beside my bed,
        a hole broke through the mesh screen. I used to write
      help me on scotch tape across pennies and poke
    the coins through the hole. One day I decided
  This is stupid. There are other ways
to ask for help. Thin was one of them.

How did you hope to be helped?
        Someone would take my shoulders in their hands
     and shake. They’d say Look what you’re doing to yourself—
   You have so much to live for. Or they’d promise You’re safe now.
 No one will hurt you again.

You desired attention?
        Rescue. Attention didn’t always get things done.

Do you acknowledge your life was privileged?
        I attended expensive schools. My face was pretty
    enough that men sat next to me on the train, even if other
 rows of seats were empty.

What made the weight loss dramatic?
         I left for summer camp and came home. Ten weeks
       I ate only rice, fruit, and small bites of fish. Castaway
     on an island, only it was New Jersey. At first
   everyone acted happy for me. I dressed up
 for school, tried out for the play.

At first, others seemed to approve of the dieting?
         On the first day of school, he followed me from class
     to the lockers. We signed out scripts for the play
  in the library. He took more time to look at me.
Everyone took more time to look at me, all of a sudden, then.
Touching and so so so true for most of it. :) Thank you. I'm trying to feed my fishies, but I'm fighting a horrendous bout of illness right now and it's difficult. 
vespera Sep 30, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
It comes from a wonderful poetry memoir

Oh no :(  flu? :(
What's the name of the memoir? Sounds beautiful.

I don't know what it is; probably a virus or something. Hopefully it will pass soon. 
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i miss you so much sweetheart; i think of you nearly every day. i hope you're alright and know that if not, we're all here for you. 
i miss you too, jess. 
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