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You are gone. Vanquished by
the sound of the floorboards
protesting, of the cupboards
rummaging among themselves.

You are gone. You were setting
out dinner plates for someone
else, preparing spaces in the material
tracing the shadows
of future men
with your blue ink fingers.

The black circlet of your teeth
slips from my throat
to the shower floor.
Like a tick.
The feast is over.
Round and sore,
my breasts hang the way
my mother’s used to.
I bleed the way the woman
down the street bleeds.
She strings her laundry
on the clothesline
like scarecrows.
She believes they will
stand guard over her body.
They swing
stiff as abortions
in the breeze.

I consider that my mouth
is likely the last to have taken
my mother’s breast,
as the last of two children,
to have held it on my tongue
like a shattered light bulb
and drawn hard with need.

My father perhaps detested the way
love poured sloppily from every
curve of her body,
my mother ashamed of the slits
the surgeons made to free me,
thin worms on her belly she hid
with her palms
when my father came to her.
Those worms feed at my rib-cage
as I practice undressing,
like a backwards puppet-show;
fissures of
not understanding why
a man cannot love
me.

I dream about the dark
saucer of the moon.
The fisherman’s body
revolving on a thin string.
How the wolf upon its
gray surface seems to
suckle on a howl.

You are gone. Like my
father. You keep your ring
of teeth looped
about your finger like a
barbed chain.
I roll over and
do not greet your ghost
at the door.

You are gone. Vanished into
the silence of the floorboards,
into the screams
you once coaxed
from our bed-frame.
Den of Thieves
.
First thing I've written in months. Ripped it out of my jugular.
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There's a lot going on in my life right now, and I'm honestly just trying to keep myself caught up with it all. But I decided to write some of it down here, just so you know that there's good changes going on, and also to explain the disappearance of some of my work.

I applied to be a poetry reader/editor for a fellow poet's literary magazine: persephonesdaughters.wordpress…
I'll hear back by mid May, and either way I hope to contribute poetry to her beautiful zine. Y'all should check it out once submissions open.

I'm a 10 page research paper (and 4 finals) away from completing my sophomore year of college. It's scary, but amazing at the same time. There was a time last year when I didn't know if I would make it to the end of freshman year. And here I am.

I've been submitting both old and new poetry to literary magazines and reviews this month (4 more went out yesterday night), so I'm hoping that it goes well. As mentioned above, you may notice some of my better pieces disappearing from my gallery. They're still here, in my scraps. I couldn't stand the thought of deleting them, even though I have copies saved elsewhere and magazines don't want them to be available anywhere else. I doubt they'll find them here, or care.

My poem "Landlocked" was accepted to Parenthetical Magazine last week. It will be published in their online and (limited) print May issue. Link here: www.wordsonpagespress.com/pare…

My poetry book is currently on hold, since I've been so busy lately and I've submitted a lot of my work elsewhere. We'll see what happens with that. I was offered a place to publish my poetry (possibly) by an old friend and previous advisor, who just started his own publishing company. We'll see how that pans out. 


I hope y'all are doing well. I've been so happy, yet so stressed, at times. I had one minor slip, but it's all fine now. Better even.
I don't want to say that boyfriend brings out the happiness in me, but I would say that he makes it easier for me to bring out the happiness myself. :) I hope positive change are in store for all of us, my lovelies. Thank you for all of you that believed in me when I couldn't. 
  • Mood: Bliss
  • Listening to: Bones - James Blunt
  • Reading: Lefkowitz and Fant
  • Drinking: coffee
Having reached the time in my sadness
when I told the ambulance not to hurry,
I tied certain poems to my neck and
let them tug me
from way up high above this city.
It may have resembled a noose,
but I promise,
they saved me.
Why Transcendental Youth Uses a Trumpeter
I'm currently submitting poems to many, many literary magazines, so I will not be posting very much on here.
This is one of the poems I wrote most recently. I feel like my pulse is beating in this one. Not sure everyone will get it,
but it's important to me.

Stay safe, loves.

Here's the song referenced in the title - "Transcendental Youth" The Mountain Goats:
www.youtube.com/watch?v=q6RQwx…
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Any people down to proof-read my poetry book "manuscript." I decided on April 1st to get down and just write the damn thing that day, and got pretty much all of it put together by the end of the day. Hence, it is a little wonky. I'm working on fixing some formatting issues, but by the end of today or tomorrow I think it'll be ready for others' eyes. 

If anyone would be down to read over it - check for spelling/grammar (if it pleases you), lines that are confusing or should be omitted (and lines that you love love love!!!), poems that don't quite fit or don't feel finished, perhaps, or even just to read it and give me feedback on length/themes/if the order works for you. 

Maybe three people?? Preferably people whom I know fairly well?? I would literally be emailing you sections of my book, so I'm a little antsy, but I need constructive criticism. Y'all would all receive honorable mention for your services. :)
  • Mood: Eager
  • Listening to: Lady Adelaide - Benjamin Gibbard
  • Reading: Strange Light - Derrick C. Brown
  • Drinking: coffee
I told my mom. I explained about depression and self-harm. I decided to be blunt and just tell her: it made things better, but not anymore. Telling my dad is going to be interesting, but I'm just so over hiding.

Burned my arm though, at work. Not gonna say it wasn't a little satisfying. Boyfriend accidentally burst the blister last night, but now it's finally starting to heal.

Oh yeah, boyfriend.

Sorry. It's just spring break at last, and I'm really happy (though nervous). 

Hope y'all are happy as well.
  • Mood: Peaceful
  • Listening to: "Listen to the Man" - George Ezra
  • Reading: De Profundis - Oscar Wilde
  • Eating: goldfish
There's a lot going on in my life right now, and I'm honestly just trying to keep myself caught up with it all. But I decided to write some of it down here, just so you know that there's good changes going on, and also to explain the disappearance of some of my work.

I applied to be a poetry reader/editor for a fellow poet's literary magazine: persephonesdaughters.wordpress…
I'll hear back by mid May, and either way I hope to contribute poetry to her beautiful zine. Y'all should check it out once submissions open.

I'm a 10 page research paper (and 4 finals) away from completing my sophomore year of college. It's scary, but amazing at the same time. There was a time last year when I didn't know if I would make it to the end of freshman year. And here I am.

I've been submitting both old and new poetry to literary magazines and reviews this month (4 more went out yesterday night), so I'm hoping that it goes well. As mentioned above, you may notice some of my better pieces disappearing from my gallery. They're still here, in my scraps. I couldn't stand the thought of deleting them, even though I have copies saved elsewhere and magazines don't want them to be available anywhere else. I doubt they'll find them here, or care.

My poem "Landlocked" was accepted to Parenthetical Magazine last week. It will be published in their online and (limited) print May issue. Link here: www.wordsonpagespress.com/pare…

My poetry book is currently on hold, since I've been so busy lately and I've submitted a lot of my work elsewhere. We'll see what happens with that. I was offered a place to publish my poetry (possibly) by an old friend and previous advisor, who just started his own publishing company. We'll see how that pans out. 


I hope y'all are doing well. I've been so happy, yet so stressed, at times. I had one minor slip, but it's all fine now. Better even.
I don't want to say that boyfriend brings out the happiness in me, but I would say that he makes it easier for me to bring out the happiness myself. :) I hope positive change are in store for all of us, my lovelies. Thank you for all of you that believed in me when I couldn't. 
  • Mood: Bliss
  • Listening to: Bones - James Blunt
  • Reading: Lefkowitz and Fant
  • Drinking: coffee

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My book: www.barnesandnoble.com/w/symbo…

"I want the count down inside of me to stop being so precise; I want to jump to zero and back to infinity. I believe in infinity. It's my fatal flaw."
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panosozi Featured By Owner Feb 23, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
thanks a lot for the fav on my photo.
wish u the best.
if you have time take a look at my rest gallery 
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Sammur-amat Featured By Owner Edited Jan 9, 2015   General Artist
hello there, lovely person! :huggle:
this is to inform you that i have made use of one of the titles in your poetry in my title poem over here: fav.me/d8d65gn :love:
i hope that this is alright with you, pray that you enjiy the read, and thank you for your inspirational artistry! :eager: <3
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fadedworlds Featured By Owner Nov 11, 2014  Student Writer
Thank you for the fav!  
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PsychoBeast Featured By Owner Oct 20, 2014
You inspire me so much, your works make me write, write write. If you ever need anyone to talk to, you can always msg me. (even though you dont know me :P)
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sense-and-stupidity Featured By Owner Nov 2, 2014  Student Writer
Thank you so much for this. I've kept from replying just so I can keep it in my inbox and look at it when I log on. One of my greatest wishes in life is to inspire other people, in whatever way. :) I'm glad you are writing and writing and writing; it's the only way to live, in my opinion. Have a splendid day, friend.
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Choque-Plumbeo Featured By Owner Sep 10, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
hey wanna read a play with me?
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sense-and-stupidity Featured By Owner Sep 11, 2014  Student Writer
Yes. Which and how and when?
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Choque-Plumbeo Featured By Owner Sep 12, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Its the King in yellow, part of it which i wrote, read it it's in my page, if you like it we'll talk about how. I'd like to record the voices to put the play together and i heard your voice and i really liked it, also i need a Cassilda and i hope you'll like it. As to when, im moving, so i can not until sunday.
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ithaswhatitisnt Featured By Owner Aug 12, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you so much for the fave! :tighthug:
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jimfleming Featured By Owner Jul 2, 2014
Thank you :)
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